When Dreams Prevail,

Sunday, February 07, 2010

all in a day's work, all in the nite's fire

lol recently i have suddenly enjoy talking in msn
with some friends and exchanging woes and joy
yea it's kinda but i guess it helps open up my mind
well maybe part of my mind i guess

but ever wonder when there were days when u feel that u arent u anymore
u gave up being true to urself
and lie to the real you just to appealing
yea i screw myself up sometimes i guess

why you might ask.
lol well i am guessing sometimes
i do turn out too much of a juice then a glass of plain water
i know i am a glass of plain water
but i donno if i am well received or not...
so i coloured myself with favourings to look like a juice

in the end...
the taste was too sweet for the drinker to enjoy..
i got poured away..
leaving a stained empty glass =\

i know i have read and learn that i should be truthful
and be myself.
yet having a bit of fun here and there
not too much that's for sure
i guess i need to have more self confidence
if i wanna really become a bottle of mineral water
full of salts and yet well loved by any thirsty drinker...

hmmm ok will do.
i will start adding more healthy salt into me
and become a better setting brand of mineral water then

nevertheless i love wat i did today.
failed a little on the surprize
not to mention that i didnt have the intention to wanna see it
was just preparing it
but i guess god of time didnt give me a good control amd it was mistaken wrongly
i guess i can only silently apologize inside my heart to that drinker
for the bad artificial colourings...

may everything run smoothly
somehow i felt something that warmed my heart a little
a hidden smile behind those emotionless feelings
i am glad that i can still feel that smile coming to me

blah almost 4
time to go slp
oyasuminasai

3:16 AM

Sunday, January 31, 2010

the black blood thickens...

i wonder is it me or do i feel a strange tension
as well as a use of someone elses dagger poking my back?
talking with someone who tries to use a bad situation against someone else.
it's really wtf...

wow i cant believe i am piss over a lame old game
in so many years of gaming
i think i have never encounter a drama game with no end to war
an i dont mean healthy war.
but unhealthy drama making wars zzz

sigh...
sometimes is it so hard to understand how my heart can feel upon someone?
being protective and acting protective always seems to have a side effect
it's either getting myself burnt or not being able to express out the feeling for something
i mean upon feeling something which one know that they dislike
yet they so processively accepting it as if it wasnt bothering them at all is really kinda strange

i think if it wasnt to keep the drama down i would have freaking find that guy
and spam it right at his face to quit doing his excessive stalking
it's damn rigth freaky.and really uncomfortable ,

it makes me feels shivers all over...
which also let me understand about the cosplayers getting stalk by guys.
make it seems as if they are perverts trying to "subway eat fresh" >.>"
arg i just wish a few days of good rest will make things better...

11:31 PM

hmmm i guess i am feeling a bit wozzy these days
needed to talk to somebody but just dont have a place to really talk to
so i guess i will just blog out my feeling again
so that i wont have to face this emoish feeling which i hated

sometimes i find myself typing things arent wat i wanted to say
wat came out in my mind is wrongly typed or written down...
i wonder wat's up with this annoying habit of mine zzz
trying to find out the cause of this sigh...
in the end from trying to be nice i ended up giving myself more discount off my good self

am i doing the wrong thing to think for ppl before me?
does kindness really not worth a penny?
many a times my kindness had fail me badly landing me into unintentional trouble
i wish i can be unkind at times...
i wonder how can i be so...

anyway finally today i broke out the chain bonding me to eso.
and went to face my interest with a strong heart of passion
met out with YZ and the rest of the guys for SOY.
man it sure was tiring but fruitful this year.manage to get loads of good closeups
honing my skills in photography.

haha even met chester/peiqi /ace and noriko
lol wonder why nori has slim down so much x.x
kinda shocking.
maybe cos too long never meet with them le.
has been almost 1/2 a year since i last saw them

anyway need to upload the pics upfirst to get them in my comp x.x
ah... feels so good to blog again
gotta get my blogging habit back again~

3:45 AM

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

lol forgetful me >.<

went over to PS to look for qiqi
why? lol cos i forgot my towel and to look for my love!
nono dont get it wrong! it'smy camera batt charger!! xD
yea without that my love will end up becoming a empty metal without life
lol was gonna play a little gamethereas well and who knows gomok was there as well xD
yea he and his love of Sanguo xD
when u see SanGuo u will see gomok xD
but i was there for my stuff
didnt wanna play
but in the end i used 6 buck for Jubeat and para para -.-"

a food for though:

sometimes it hard having female friends then male friends lol
male will always be stuck with their gal and ignore their other friends
females? will have males who have and eye out for u if u are a guy and get too close to them lol
sure is hard to make friend these days haiz....

7:36 PM

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

cosfest 2009

2 days of cosfest 2009 have pass has yet again gone by with a swift blink of an eye
yes again this year we have booked a charlet for the event
fun and laughter has always been part of the fun about the event
but when there is fun there would always be conflict as well
it has not totally gone as wat i have planned it to be
was hoping for day 1 overnite hiking and day 2 BBQ
in the end cos some came late we had no choice but to cancel out nite excusion sigh =\
and day 2 was just too tired to even bother with BBQ >.<

but i guess personally i am a little stress out by a certain factor
i only wanted to be a part of the fun and helper
but instead i kinda end up feeling another role =\
house rules are really followed in a way T_T

sigh...not too mention a sudden addition of ppl x.x
but i mean sudden addition was not really the prob
it was kinda within prediction
but there is 1 thing i am kinda bugged
do i feel some kinda of sour green feeling from somewhere?

i donno why this feeling came out of nowhere
as if a presence of someone luring and looking at me from behind
lol i donno about last year but this year i came with the feeling for fun
but in the end i still feel the presence of wat i feel before.
zzz... o well at least i have some kinda of fun and a lot of running around in the nite as well =\

anyway this years cosfest sure if way better then last year.
the amount of different cosplayer is better then last year where DGM were all over the place lol\
the thing that amuse me was the Monster Hunter cosplayer ! in Bistro set :3
but thisyear therewas a over kill of neko -.-"
sigh and i tot no one was botheredwith neko this year
in the end i saw like 5~10 neko mimi XD

i am still uploading the photos onto photo buck hope theywill be done soon

7:21 PM

Sunday, July 05, 2009

WCG

"Random pic of me wear Neko ear at Ayami's house XD"

wow it has been a crazy saturday
was running around taking photos of the wcg (World Cyber Gaming)
and aww man i didnt know that day's event was shana cosplaying based =\
could have wore my J-Uni there T_T
o well i think it's best not to wear anyway xD
was sweating like mad cos of all the running around

anyway morning time met up with ayami and shouji to take a taxi to suntec
wow kinda ex T_T 26+ *sniff sniff*
anyway the cosplayers didnt assemble till around 2+
was quite surprize at that.
i assume they would be there early.
maybe i was with kuraidori for too long xD
used to being early for events xD
anyway i saw a few guys i met back then ,
been quite a while since i last saw them xD

good to get in touch with them before cosfest
as well as droooling over the cam extensions i saw all over
but then again upon saying is one matter.
in deep i do know that any cam works well if u know how to use them
so for those who was feeling so high up dont be lol
u still have to buckle up ur skills

anyway i uploaded some pics from the event.
i dont think i would be posting all the pics till next week after cosfest
as most of the pic are on ayami's D50 cam x.x
wont get them till he transfer to my SD card and passing me back during cosfest T_T
need to get ready all my memory cards for cosfest
will be needing it xD

Event hall
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Cosplayers
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Shana (Shakugan no Shana)

High Priest and Champion (Ragnarok online)

Freya (Chobits) - Wee~ XD finally another chobit cosplayer~

One of the Shana Dress up competition friend of mine
(sad she kept forgetting who i am x,x and arent she cute with the neko ear? xD
i want one myself xD so ayami get me my ear~~)

11:47 AM

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Bomb found in Teban garden

a lot of commotion tonite -.-"
apparently after i came home from jurong west,
there was a huge out of bound area around the neighborhood police post
loads of ppl surrounds the area looking at a bunch of man examining at a little box
most of the crowds are just there looking
just as puzzle as i am
but when i asked a few of those who were there earlier
i was a little shock on wat i heard

it seems there was a bomb planted at the police post
i am not really bothered by it as it seems all too unreal
1: being the secure covage area is too small
2: the hdb flat is still filled with occupants inside

how can one take a bomb seriously when all the counter measure is not met?
well maybe they are just trying to assure if the treat is real
but seriously i jokingly walked away
but a little unease as well inside of me
if it was some kind of terrorist bombing,why bother targeting such a senseless area
this part of the land isnt even worth threatening at all lol

there is actually another thing that bothers me..
wat is that orange cover behind them?
is it a dead body of the bomber?
lol wont know and i dont think i am really bothered as well
hmmm maybe i should go down and take a shot to post it here
ok i will do that now for future reference then xD

The Target of the bomb

The crowd around the "Bomb area"

8:18 PM

Many says one would break up when face with a prob of distress
and it's those point that one would choose to live or "die"
just something random in my thought
life have been a mess up till now.the years passed by fruitlessly
though many fertilizers have been soiled near this tree.
it continue to grow ,bearing no fruit at all...

has it broke itself with dispair,hatral and fear?
even the tree dont understand it
the only thing it does was to stand there forever following the season
growing new leaves...
shedding whithered ones
and rooting deeper into the ground...

if the tree dont bare anymore fruits any time sooner.
it will wither away to nothing but a log of wood meant for the fireplace...
Dear Tree pls do live on and reach for the shy to grow.
never give up on urself.
u have farmers nurturing u
even when u arent bearing fruits.
show them that u can still bear sweet fruits for all to enjoy...]

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Miku~ Miku~

finally got my hands on a miku psp game.
saw that in gamefaq but didnt know that it was out
till i was talking with ayumi today
apparently planning is on the way
haiz... the only thing now is i am short of cash as well =\
i blame myself for my incompetent.
money not enough...sad sad...
one thing i know for sure is
i am quite gonna be a thrifty person when it come to cash
not becos i money face.
ppl borrowing money and not returning them is sure some bunch of freskass...
u will get ur retributions....
lol not gonna blah blah so much le time to slp *yawn...*

3:28 AM

Sunday, June 28, 2009

ppl come ppl go .a natural evolution of life....

man was first created by god or so it was said in the book of genesis
Adam and Eve was created to walk the land we know today
and after the story of the forbidden apples ,
offsprings of adam and eve beings to spread all over the world.
but my topic for today isnt about adam and eve
it's Us,the offspring among offsprings

we walk the way of life
seeing things passing us in a blink of an eye
a desire for love
then a sudden change of another lover with a sweetlips
a hi from a passerby to a hug from him or her as a acquaintance

how mysterious it can be to see how we meet ppl in all wards of life
but always seems to miss them as they pass by after a certain time
is it about treasuring or not treasuring someone?
or is it just part of man's nature to forget wat we see and look forward

we are always in need of someone to care of no matter how strong we are
that's just part of man's vulnerability we hid in our side.
hoping that no one sees us yet there is always a certain point
we feel like peeking into the world seeking help

sometimes i do wish to just sit down and look at the world just go by before my eyes
i guess the only time that will happen
is when one forgets the world and be as one with the world

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really hate being sick zzz
went to the doc to get some medication on my throat inflammation
has been bothering me for almost a week plus
not to mention the damn job that totally drained my physical welfare
dont think i can continue with it
now i ended up having to rest more to recover from all the aching....

wonder how are the others doing.
yuezhi being in ns and others
the cosplayer team seems to have quiet down a little though i still see conflict here and there
sigh..
wat in the world is going on
why cant the world just chill a little and quit being nasty zzzz
sometimes i still feel fortunate to be a single then attached >.>"

8:06 PM