boring and bo liao day-.-
lol today is quite a boring day-.- due to the fact that i didnt bring my keys to camp yesterday.i have totally no access to my cabinet.zzz had to wear admin(army t-shirt and shorts)the whole day.not that i dont like it.it's the fact that i cant access to the other stuff that's iniside of my cabinet that pisses me off lol.i plpanned for this 2 days to be back in camp to do all the neccessary admin work for my clearance of the leave and now.i cant even do it-.- wasted a freaking day.
took half day so that i can go home to take my keys.but i didnt leave till it's was like 3pm.lol has work to do.one of the office has a phone line down that took me almost 1 hour to deal with it.but of cos the job was undone lol.out of my reach...contractor has cut the phone line for that place .
now come bak to camp to rot once again-.- will only start my leave and off clearing after wednesday haiz....
back to camp again =/
haha off ended liao.now back in camp again.but not come back for nothing de =P.gonna have to clear all the neccessary admin work before i can really ord in peace haha.tomorrow will have to clear my arms and stuff haha if not i donno if i will ever get my pink ic back XD.ok lah gotta go rest le haha how tomorrow dont too busy wahaha.
the movie "fall of japan"
went out to watch movie again with my family haha.i mean now no gf le mah so.go with family watch movie lor haha.anyway i just wanna review this terrific movie after i watch it.my rating? "a MUST watch movie" especially with your loved one.the movie's kinda touchy,full of emotion and excitement.watch the movie and yes every part of it,everything has a meaning in it.it's really kinda a mixture of politic(the loving and the self center government),love and seperation as well as heroism.love for someone is never revolve anything more important then the heart and yes i do mean sex too LOL.haha wondered why i say that? well go watch the movie and you will know wahaha.that part is kinda a shocker yet sad =/
but despite the movie's good,i am surrounded by idiots too in the theater -.- the couple in front of me kept moving around. i mean the guy kept pushing his sit back and hitting me.kinda got me pissed.i gave way to him for the first few time till to a point i cant stand it anymore,tapped his shoulder and told him off lol.got him a little shock off haha.he wanted to hug his gf gana say by me.hand got taken off by his gal =X but of cos nothing stop the power of love =P,i dont wanna bother with the rest of the detail lol.another one is my father -.-||| dont he know something call considerate in the theater ,speak softly lah -.- feel like scolding him too lol.but dont wanna spoilt my movie mood =X.shh-ed him haha.still i wish i was with a gal watching this show...the feeling will definately be different =( o well...wat's past cannot be changed anymore ... no point blabbering about it haha.....
omg....game addiction...siao liao -.-"
lol this is scary...has been a long tie since i find a game online that i play until iao again.now playing flyff(fly for fun)really kinda crazily addicted to it haha.anyway went out to fetch my mother yesterday.during the morning time heard about her prob at work with some of her collueage being very ill mannered to her.kinda piss me off.tipical aunties...those you see walking around markets kepo-ing
into other ppl's business.just dont make me overly flared.i dont give myself name kokushi tenshi yutaka for nothing...even a falled angel will have a limit to how much things can come by.thinking i will brush past like last time ?think again,i am not a peace maker anymore,nothing but a troublemaker.it's easier to be a bad guy then a good one.of cos fighting is for no brainers.mind games and suffering tactics are best for these chicken mouth ppl.wahahaha...
new wallet,old memories...
today just changed my wornout wallet to a new one.ppl often said have a new wallet will bring you more wealth.haha well it doesn't apply to me tough.at least not for this very day,with wat's inside my wallet.a photo card...of 2 person who were once very close,very loving,full of laughter and teasing...but now full of nothing but speechless space that will never again be filled with any sound.yes that is one of the most nicest pic we have ever taken together.
haha i can all still remember it so well,as if it was yesterday.the photo was taken at Lot 1,top floor,arcade:Xzone.haha we held hand in hand walking around looking for a neocard shop.it was almost everytime that we did that.every special occasion we will always have a neocard to remember it.happy moments...but i didnt expect these happy moments will only be rememebered in a photo that makes my heart stop for a moment just to catch my breathe,not for shock but to regain my conscience that it's the past and will never be the future ever i guess.
that photo have been in my wallet every since the day we took it.it has never left it even till the day we ended our relationship.it has never been the case of me forgeting about her forever.nothing like that could have been done.never ever i guess.although the grief pain is no longer haunting me.memories still has their way of teasing with my life.
haha sometimes i wonder how is she doing now.is coping well with her collueage and that bitching boss of her's?thinking back to the past,till the day we moved on our own path,how so many things has changed about her and me.ns life has gone me to be a slacker more then a leader,gotten me to have lesser time to spend with her as well as my family.balancing between my family and her was really a pain too.but then again i didnt wanna sound that out.my fault not to too,but how can i let her feel as if she is the cause of it...?after all...she is my gal..i meant used to be...haha just feels funny to suddenly blabbering out the feeling i have kept so very long inside of me.that was suppose to be a secret.but i guess it's better off taking my thought out of my head and into the book of memories.my sweet sweet blog,silent listener.i wished to tell her all but i think it's all too late now.no need to even having a second thought.i will still pray for her safety and blessings...that will always be.and will always stay that way till the day my heart fails me...God pls look after me,my family as well as the one i have and had love once before the blessing...
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perfect shooter in range =)
haha yesterday i didnt blogged cos i was too tired to do so.reached home around 1am.many wont know why but i know =)
it's range day(rifle shooting)it was actually quite screw up in a way.due to the tectnical fault my team pratically missed all the large targets.total of 5 points+,but luckily we were granted with a second chance(after a long of complaining lol)we cleared the morning shooting with 86/90 shots.
crazily as it seems the night was a waste of time too.no only was the targets undetactable,the same freaking lane was having the prob we encountered in the morning.no score for the direct hit of the big targets.it was the worst score ever lol.7 un-used rounds and a lot of misses.as expected of us we complained again.but was giving "fake" news that we already gotten markmen.lol and guess wat ,they were assuming our team has 5 but all aong we had 6 -.-"
anyway we were granted the second chance and we sure make the full use of that chance.we manage to get another great score but this time i am not sure how much we gotten for the night shoot.but for me? haha as the title have said =).perfect score for both the shootout.15/15 for both day and night shoot.but i am still praying that my reward for getting markmenship will not be wasted due to ord .that's a awful load of money invlove in this.if i do get it i will be most happy to jump all over =D
still i put my pride in my shooting cos the only way to be a good shooter is to have a calm of heart.not to think too much about winning or losing.the more you wish for it to be the worster it will become.haha but o well some ppl wont understand this.
hmmm wat is this movie all about lol
lol watched this movie called prestige today with my family but truthfully i totally dont get wat that show's trying to tell lol.everything dont make sense till the end when the twin bro's appearance i still dont get the wat is happening lol.regrate not watching the fall of japan =/ that's a better show.ful of excitement.though it's in jap(why would i mind if it's jap haha.except my father of cos lol) but it's better then this shitty show lol.
the day's rather boring.helped to do hoiuse cleaning in preparation for the coming of our new fridge tomorrow.haha also downloaded a new mmorpg game called fly for fun.seems like a cool game almost the same as R.O.S.E online.havent play it yet though but cant wait to try it out haha.
anyway i gotta go rest now.tired now lol,dont wanna wake up tomorrow looking like a panda =/
prawn fishing at reptile park
haha yesterday didnt have time to post my blog.was too tired.we ended the day early in camp.halfday haha woot!.but even then i have no idea wat can i do at home till 8 pm.rotted at home till the time past lol.the night was wat i was waiting for haha.meeting some camp friends to go prawn fishing at reptile park near bird park.
seriously i have totally no idea of catching prawns.never tried it before XD.but to tell you the truth,although this is my first time,i caught almost 12+ prawns =P.most catch among my group haha.was the first to catch the prawn and start the ball rolling XD.it's just like seeing them getting hook al by themselves XD.only thing is you gotta be patient.without patience you will not actch anything.and the they provide wont help much at all.my friend brought chicken liver before hand to catch them.haha and it sure works well XD.sure was a fun experience for me haha.catch till 12am+ in the morning.9-12,3 hours for 25 dollars.but over time wise they wont really bother unless they lack rods XD.next time gonna try out the another place with them if i am not wrong xD.looking forward to that.
days to dream,a loving future in the kingdom of hearts
the day which i longed has finally going to come soon.ORD is so close by.the day which i so painfully endured for these 2 years.not that it's a torture or wat.but it's the fact that i have seen many ppl broke up their hearts in the land of the loveless mind ns...haha well i am one of them too.not that it will affact me too much nowsadays,but i just suddenly have the heat to remind myself that i dont owe anyone my life haha.it's just part of my training in being a better person to see the world.
but it has always hit me with this strange yet magical question.wat is love and why do ppl love?i know i know =) there is many definition to it,family love,brotherly/sisterly love,even friendshop love.but well,how will the world be if there is no love? hmmm...sound so senseless haha.dont mind me i am a little nonsensical tonight oh well.maybe i am starting to do some mind sorting these few days.haha gotta settle down my herat and soul for the things i wanna do soon le haha
me,myself and my friends ps2 lol
haha as i have said in my title haha.have been playing my friend's ps2 in camp for a hell whole day lol.rotting liao haha.love this game "valkyrie profile 2"
training nonstop the whole day till i can go mad -.-||| lol
i use to think that having a console at home is pointless since i have a comp and a internet.online game was my life back then.it was suppose to be me,myself and my RO(ragnarok online) haha but after playing for so long i really got bored of it again.as much as i like the game ,there are ppl who make me feel sick about the games.i mean it's not just this game a lone,happens in many other as well.where is the gamer's spirit gone to?last time ppl play games to enjoy and relieve from all the stress.but now? ppl play games just for the sake of trying to irritate ppl and other nonsensical stuff.lol life is never any more exciting then seeing ppl who manifest the world with insolent thinkings...
o well life is never fair haha.that i have accept it for quite a while now =)just something that many should realise.
life is beautiful,but is it pure?
so tired today.just reach camp only.had supper with some friends then they drive in haha.at least dont have to walk up the freaking hill.can die ah =/
haiz...sian lor.come back camp also donno do wat sia.at home sian,in camp also sian lol.gotta find something meaningful to do if not can go ki siao lor.
lol these days kept dwelling in friendster haha.kept talking to some of my oz friends' till whole testiment flooded with msg xD of theirs.li hai wor xD haha.guess being single is quite carefree bah but nothing to do haha.last time keep having to come out meet gf.dont really have time for own things to do.but now nothing to do cant find anyone to go out with.the contradiction of life =)
haha "to love or not to love that's a silly question" wahaha.anyhow change the famous quote XD...
i wonder if there is any games that i can play to kill time until things happen =P
lol but seriously i doubt anything interesting will happen...
haha finally i got my specs but to my surprise,the degree isnt up to the expectation =/ i can only see a certain distant of things XD other then that still a litttle blurry >.<..o well just bare with it first bah .need to make another spare next time in case i break this lol.make next one then this one will use as comp spec wahaha.use comp time then wear =X
went to a friend's bday bbq.haha kinda enjoy the gathering of friends lol but to tell the truth i actually almost forgot about the bbq.cos i was so agitated by the old spec that i pratically cant think about anything other then getting my spec XD.the funny thing about today's bbq is finding of the place =/ bbq pit 20 was like so far from the fisherman's village till me plus 2 other guys cant find xD.turn and turn ...walk and walk ...after calling several times then find the place haha.
cooked so much food and eat non-stop wor haha.especially the mushmellows ^.^they ownz~
the cake was a little out of shape as it has melted haha but hey 4 season cake wor.taste good lor.must remind myself next time get this cake for bday.(not only mind la haha)but wat got me a little bothered is one of the friend/relative of my friend.donno is friend or relative sia...but she sure know how to talk in a very arrogant way -.- i first notice her is when she is on the phone.donno wat say my friend's name a lot of ppl have and he not like a yan dao or wat zzz-.- wth sia.her business meh -.- another incident was the gel like ice pack in the cake box.she donno wat it was so i say is ice pack.lol counter me by saying "ice pack got gel de meh!?" in a loud voice -.- lol end up she paiseh till keep quiet and "ohh...!"still arrogantly somemore -.-....some woman are born stupid -.- use breast to think de -.-zzz(sorry all lady who are reading this i dont mean all woman i meant some =X )
but o well my friend bday dont want to make trouble.not very good =)
haha but ok lah at least everyone having fun haha.that's all it counts ^^.looooove those melting mushmellows~~~yum~~!
ordered a new pair of spec =P
haha finally today i got the chance to made a new pair of specs.blue full frame .but kinda a big burn in the pocket lol 150 dollars =/
i hope by sat i will be ok haha if not i donno how i am gonna live through a few more days with this damn half broken spec >.<
haha also found out that my eyesight wasnt really that near sighted lol
from 750++ now is 650.heng ah i tot i have reach 800 XD
anyway tonight was suppose to be my night's off.but i never really go home just eat dinnerwith family at jurong then make my specs.lazy to go home.might as well book in early today.tomorrow still have the inspection of the store for ex in australia.not that i have to go but i need to help out too.need to wake up pretty early =/ but my only wish is for it to early early and not late haha if not i am gonna go nuts XD
ok so much for tonight gotta go sleep liao if not later sure tired de haha
irritating specs broken...
sigh... broke ,y spec 2 days ago.didnt write it in my last blog cos miss out haha
and heck is it hell for me now...i cant see a damn thing lol.now temporaryly use duck tape to stick.tomorrow then go make.sianz...lol actually buying contact de but not enough money haha.come to think of it damn funny.i went to find for contact that day.then the person say cos i have 2 different degree so i need to buy 2 lolo.total 75.i was a little short of cash so i ask if there is those 1 week de.he said yea there is lol.i was hoping for it to be at least lesser.but guess wat LOL he hit me with the price that's more xD 80 XD.faint -.- in the end i didnt get any lens =/just wish when my night off comes tomorrow i can quickly get that specs done XD
grrr i cany even see the keyboard now lol.basing on my daily typing and staring closely on the screen haha to finish this XD
o well i am a lazy to type today cos cant see haha so i will stop here for now haha
The disease of pleasing
donno why these few days i will always find myself feeling exhausted.not that i keep playing game or wat wor =/
hasnt been playing online game for quite a while.i am amazed by it too.lol...
it just hits me to think that blogging and surfing around youtube for funny games show and watching anime a good past time XD
anyway there are like still a ton of anime i havent watch finish XD
zzz i cant seems to escape the fate that i have to go for range shooting before i ORD.
wonder how in the world am i going to have time cleaning my SAR 21 lol.
tot that amybe after loast guard i can at least clean it.o well >.<
guess this will just have to be delayed -.-
haha you all must be thinking after i blog so much wat the hell is with that title =x
it's actually a book =P.it's about ppl with problem of having to keep pleasing others
to a expense of self sacrificing.it actually hurts more then making yourself happy but pleasing others then yourself.lol and after doing the quiz i am the super tipical ppl pleaser ~>.<~
lol i think that's one thing that have cos a downfall of my relationship too =/
giving too much to my other partner till nothing much is really understandable between
both parties.o well just have to do more self-enriching for a better life ^o^
new blog page for stories unfold
just moments ago i finish my new blog page for sololy stories and other interesting stuff that i can post in there.my first dream unfold to story has been posted there.i am still currently working on putting a tag page there so ppl can comment or put a certain ending of created fantasy for my stories.i might also move my quotes and stuff to the new blog so be turn to look into my new blog for more stuff haha
here's a fast link to that page. http://mystoriesanddreams.blogspot.com/
this page can be found under my link page if you all wanna come here anything for music and story reading
hazy day makes a man goes insane
quite a smoky day isn't it=/
wonder if the hazy will be as back as back then...
anyway today is yet again another one of those busy day yet piss me off days...
seems to get piss off very easily these days.maybe because now i wanna get in control le bah.
last time cos still in ns control so dont like to care so much.but now everything is different.i am back time to take control of watever i think is right.wat is pain when the world i am in is already one.i guess i am just use to it now that it's time for me to get my fist waving back to it.
anyway today started well when we were given a promise of half day.everyone was so eager to do everything perfectly well and fast.cleaning the 26 pair cables are not a very easy thing to do but well we got the job done by 1 hour's time.happily we all rested and waited for mid day to come.little do we expect that all we do is for nothing but a empty promise....
wat seems like booking out at 12.30pm became 5pm(usual time) hell with her.wth can this sort of superior be in command -.- calling us to do shitty work just to drag the time.wat she cant go so we cant go also lah.wtf is matter with her.grrr tired of these idiots in my company.1 spec,1 commander,1 man...that's all we need for a full set combo of trouble...hope this idiots will just drop into the ocean of oblivion never to be found...
o yea i got myself a news paper article.will be posting it in my new section soon.after i do some editing to my template.
idiot's are born everyday...but it's just stupid idiots that are the ones the cause the most trouble...
nights out for guys~
haha after a night's of tired guard duty yesterday,had a morning rest in bunk.but all was short due to the cleaning of stores for the Diamond Warrior Ex was pretty tired as i dont think sleep was still enough for me =/
nevertheless it's just the few of us left to do work.cant be helped i guess.aust's customs are just too strict in a way so we would have to get all the stuff to look new in a way.lol to a extend that we Kiwi-ed the ropes so that they will look black haha.of cos we didn't do it line by line just cover appearance.but still there are just some ppl who think they know wat they are doing and do it line by line -.- geeez...cant stand this person.donno wat the hell is he doing anyway.dont wanna care so much too .ORD le wahaha.
haha enough of the lame crap and get on with the all guys night's out again.haha again the few of us camp friends gathered together for a dinner.talk about stuffing our hearts out with food lol.oyster egg,sambal kangkong & sotong,roast chicken and friend hokkien mee.lol eat them all to statify our hunger haha.well 3 of my camp friends are still in driving course haha but even then we are still able to gather together for dinner.heng my friend has a transport to come and go if not sure siao de haha...
but now am back in camp again.nothing much to do other then playing tribal wars and doing my blogging.time is getting cos.then to fly out of the cage soon ^^
jiyuu wa rairin desu.kokoro wa toki toki desu nee~
haha finally doing my last guard duty in ns.been waiting for this for a long time...but lol i cant help laughing at some funny things happening this very night xD
first let start off with the funny things =P
it's our guard mounting(a procedure where the duty personnels fall in and report strength)
lol our usual ways would be march 3 step forward then end it with a stomp of our foot.but today it's kinda different haha.well the BOS in charge seemly want us to continue to march on and make a small turn back to the guard room =x
it was kinda silly but we end up doing a trial march making a roundabout turn to the guard room wahaha.of ocs saying it this way cant be to actually being there to witness how silly it can be lol.
another thing will be the one that piss me off.it's some cockster,let's quote him as fatboy-not-slim bah.grrrr really piss me off.hell is he suppose to be the person in charge of the guards yet freaking hell where the freak did he go whenever his needed?like to ninjutsu so much go be a ninja lah -.-"
freaking hell BOS called back to the guard room no one was there.came to us whose doing the back gate duty.screwed us for not listening to his call.luckily for me that i did reply to the "aliened" call which i cant make a sense out of wat he was saying (radio distortion lor =/ )go back guard room only 3 man there left-.- no spec no table ic.nbcb!!
freaking stab garung-.-" go play with a screwdriver lah -"-
want to punk vs me.dont bother i am not the kinda which would entertain to these lame stuff.if wanna play big might as well show hand -.-
dont play kacan puteh with me.grrrr....idiots these days donno how these ppl get their ranks de -.-
really spoil my mood sia.tot can enjoy my last guard.see his,i sian by 1/2.
but anyway at least i dont have to see his face again.at least not in any of these shit lol.
tuesday blues...?
Me and my ns friends in indonesia R&R for Ex. Safka Indopura pizza's cheaper then singapore! XD
-.-" donno watever happened to me today but i am crazily gloomy and feeling all grouchy all the way.the usual laughing and joking me turned into a recarnated demon.storming all over with a grumbling face.was watching the anime "tenshi no konomaiki" yesterday.lol my way to heaven cos it was too funny.the anime has been out for quite a long while now.almost 2 years but i wasnt able to watch it as i didnt dl the full anime.all thanks to virus and trojan.-.-
but anyway i am glad i can still get feast my eyes on this humourous anime.tomorrow is my FFI,a checkup for those whose gonna ord from national service.time is closing by for me to get out of there but the more closer it gets,the more worried i get too...wat is it gonna be when i am outta there?i am kinda lost...but o well i will have to sniff my way back in track in order to get my life back.good and bad times,happiness and painful thoughts...this is just part and parcels of being a NSF.to all who are serving or goingto serve ns.just be mindful that things are bound to change in this 2 years.it's for you to experience and to find out...
life is fear,death is freedom?
haha been skipping a few days of blog haha .has really been busy looking around for code to enhance my blog...zzz too long never use html codes all washed away in the tide of memories.
anyway a lot of thinga have been happening these days...
not me though but ppl around me...it just kinda makes me feel like looking around more and explore the mysteries of this unknown world.i have seen breakups and close to breakups...which makes me think back if love really exist in harsh world.
love at first sight?hot relationship? haha...all this are really kinda crappy...
yea as many would have known that i am already single haha but that's not the point of wat i have in mind.i have once again resume my role as "council of love" but this time i am not cupid with the love arrows anymore.i am going to be a neutral party on this now =/
haha well darkness dwells in the darkest cave.and i guess the cave of love is everyone's worst nightmare...
to those who feel lost.find your way with a soul of hope not death.
to those who warmth.dreams are there but it's up to you to shape watever you want your life to be.
and for those is on the verge of trying to end their life for things that the world has cruelly create.dont lost hope.recovery is long and painful one will have to go through hardship in order to get the better things in life...
i am too walking this path of recovery =)
so i wish everyone to have the same prob to stand up straight.talk to a friend you have ...cos they are your best comfort when bad time comes...
and treat your love ones with respect and the care they deserve.dont hurt them.cos love is a very saintly thing...
kono sekai wa shite nenai
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