When Dreams Prevail,

Saturday, July 23, 2011

weekend is nearing again...

once again weekend has somehow arrived
was so busy clearing my photos that i didnt even notice how much time has passed during the process.
but it was fun to see the out come being decent
sigh but there is still so much to clear
gotta do them fast so that i wont end up with piles and piles of work.
met mu xing recently,
his now working as a event planner,haha hoope to get some lobang on freelance photographer jobs.
hmm have some discussion with him on the job prospected that i can look forward to.
hope i can work out some plans if he does have some project for me.~

gotta go slp liao. 2am le ><
hope the heaven will look and bless us with a present tml~

2:10 AM

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

recalling back on that day...

lol just a recap on the earlier day while i was out with qi and the rest of the gang
yea it was qi's bday
but somehow i feel like we have ignored her...
dispite the morning visit to bukit timah railway,
i didnt really take a lot since it's almost similiar to tanjong pagar rail,except for all the rails.
but i really dont understand how ppl some ppl is thinking...
for me every moments while i am doing photography
i dont rush all over,
there are more then 1 thing to take at a certain area.
but someone was rushing us to move all over the place..
i am not sure if i can consider him a person who appreciate photography
or merely cos i was a competitor of a all diff issue...
yes i said was...

but nevertheless a few things i hate the most is being push around
and ppl who are trying to be funny .
i might not show out how i feel.
but i am quite bothered inside...
why are u trying so hard to show that u are better then me or anyone else? lol
in terms of photography i do it cos it has always been my dream since young.
i am often expose to arts and etc stuff.
i still remember my young days whenever there is a excursion,
i would buy a instant cam
and snap down the moments .

sigh...sometimes i feel like talking to qi about some of these stuff
but i dont really wanna bother her since she has a bf to attend to as well.
some of these stuff can only be shared with ppl who understands how u are from the inside.
a while back i do feel that i was giving the wrong attention.lol
lol shall not go into that.

but yea after that we went over to SAM for some dollfie shoot.
again there seems to be some restriction that i feel on myself.
i think bossu feel it too.
in our minds we all just have the interest of taking cool pics of chester's doll
wanting to go inside SAM since there is air con and 4 dollars nia
but yea -.- spoil sport there was kinda touting...
i personally was hoping to go in.
i have never been inside as well.
and yea like wat ning said.the fee was ex before that day's 4 dollar offer.

in the end the shoot ended at esplanade,
not a lot .
just some poses and stuff .
at times i really wish to just ask her aboiut some stuff.
and just telling her how i feel back then.
just to lift that heavy stone in my heart.
may it be rejection(which i am already set in mind anyway)
but will it be ok if i do so?
9 months of admiration and learning about her,
only takes me 1 moment to shatter them all...
how cool is that haha.....
forgive me for my selfishness...
i need to learn to let go on things that is impossible...
cos i can also feel the connection there as well...

8:19 PM

Monday, July 18, 2011

Psy-locks within the heart

Sigh...ever come across times where u know u are able to do anything or say anything.
Yet due to a tremor in the past,ur heart is locked up in order to protect urself?
Ye..those are called psy-locks.

Many a time I have tried unlocking the lock within me
by trying to face females ,talking to them ,approaching them to chat.
But of cos those talks are on a work,photography and friend based.
There is no issue at all.but when I do fall for someone and tries to speak with them
even when we have several things in common to talk about.
I would end up with nothing or eventually coming to a point of nothingness.
My eyes wouldn't make a eye to eye contact with them.
I love looking to human eyes.they can be quite mystifying,not to mention about it being the gates to one's soul.
U can never lie to someone reads ur eye reactions.

Haha recently I tried to shut my feelings out.
Treating everyone as a friend basis.
And just look at how much things we end up talking,no stress,laughing and joking all over.
Of cos I do feel the little shadow luring nearby.
Now is never a competition anymore,never has been one to begin with.
And I am not one whose competitive over anything.
Don't don't like being the winner just to prove myself.
Sometimes being on the losing aide had it's advantage as well.

But wat some ppl don't realize is how they mKe others feel.
I just feel kinda sad when u know u like someone,
Yet u only choose to know everything about them and not notice the basic rules of love
the rules of changing urself for ur love one.
I am no lover boy ,but I know I am willing to change for the someone I love.
And making them feel who they suppose to be
And not wat u want them to be.
They aren't toys and love is never a toy.
If one were to believe that love is nothing but a board game
I would personally scold him/ her right at their face even if they are my best friend...

8:24 AM

Monday, July 11, 2011

Photoshoot with jerrine and co

It has been a fun day yesterday
Meeting out with jerrine,nico,venessa,brenda,Christopher for a to aru no railgun shoot.
Truthfully speaking this shoot is one of the better shoots I have gone for.
Considering the fact that we are really doing Cosplay photography then merely fooling around.
Haha even jerrine said that I look way too serious while shooting.
Well I do though.my daily lifestyle always give me the joker amount the joke should of feeling to everyone.
So when I really went on serious mode,most ppl is a little surprise.
I do take photography quite seriously in a sense.
It has been my dream goal after all.

One thing I am a little annoyed is the fact that
Wat I learnt mostly is from Raymond actually lol.
Comparing to yz's teaching,Dispite we do photography together
The lvl of things I learn is actually quite surfaced.
The path of learning don't just stop at a point.
It's learn and practice as much as possible.
sadly my understanding of flash photography is still quite little.
Lol I kept saying noob things like set ur shutter over 200 when that is the limit during flash photography.
I have also notice my understanding of light sensitivity between Fstop and EV is kinda diff .
I still need to train myself to and force myself to understand the shutter opening width.
DSLR isn't easily taught by just telling someone to set to a certain setting and shoot.
And for someone who would tell u to set to auto and not use aperture mode to shoot cannot be someone who can be called a teacher -.-"
Sorry I would only consider calling u someone who intro and telling u the basic of photography.
Which is Wat every cam saleman can do.

6:37 AM