When Dreams Prevail,

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

sometimes i ask myself. (true story)

Sometimes i ask myself :
" what am i looking for when i am first born? "

" i wanna be a builder! " i said to myself
while playing with my lego and building houses and plane

" i want to me a writer! " i smirked to myself
as i wrote stories of the dreams i had and the things i see

" i want to be an artist! " i said while smiling happily
as i attended art classes,
holding upon a drawing i drew of a dragon boat race ,
with racers coloured in green .

But as i grow up
i discovered that,
i cannot build but i can design the layout,
i can't write but i can visualize what i wish to tell.
i don't really wanna draw but i wish to capture the image with the colour as it is.

I told myself from then on.
" I want to be a photographer,
to build the world with colourful images,
write a story with the pictures i take,
and paint the world with vibrant colours with my imagination."

and so from there on i moved on and kept myself focus on learning the ways of the light.
it's not about earning money nonstop and doing ur best
it's about doing it with and without earning money .
yet following wat u think is important in life.

i am happy to know that ,
even if i am sick,
not being able to live a long life,
or even about not having someone to be with.
i am happy to paint the world,
draw smiles and happiness as well as creating what my eye and mind see
into a visual art.

most ppl in singapore is just thinking too much about things that is way too farsight.
thinking of about what it would be after they are old.
about retirement and death.
i would ask everyone a question.
what if u secure a health insurance?
what if u set a firm retirement?
and working your ass off only to spend on things u want now?

life is never secure.
are you happy with what you are doing now?
i know you might already start thinking about .

"so what if i am not happy now? i will be happy when i am old.
while you aren't"

my reply would be

"nah,i am happy that i revolve myself around happy memories,
doing things i know i would not be able to do when i am old.
facing challenges that i might most probably give up due to my aging body."

so before you start thinking about asking someone to look at what society has to offer.
take one step back
and think what have you done recently?
is it really what you wish to do in the future?
if you are happy with what you are doing,
you would smile after you have done it,
and feel happy inside.

if not,
it's is just another job that you think u are doing,
because the other job just doesn't seems to interest you or too tough for you.
ppl who don't reply instantly doesnt mean they have something to hid,
it's because they are finding words that are more appropriate to reply.
don't be judgmental over how fast a person replies,
but how much a person actually do.

because a person who thinks rather then act instantly has thinks plan way more then a person with nothing but words.

8:41 AM