When Dreams Prevail,

Sunday, January 31, 2010

the black blood thickens...

i wonder is it me or do i feel a strange tension
as well as a use of someone elses dagger poking my back?
talking with someone who tries to use a bad situation against someone else.
it's really wtf...

wow i cant believe i am piss over a lame old game
in so many years of gaming
i think i have never encounter a drama game with no end to war
an i dont mean healthy war.
but unhealthy drama making wars zzz

sigh...
sometimes is it so hard to understand how my heart can feel upon someone?
being protective and acting protective always seems to have a side effect
it's either getting myself burnt or not being able to express out the feeling for something
i mean upon feeling something which one know that they dislike
yet they so processively accepting it as if it wasnt bothering them at all is really kinda strange

i think if it wasnt to keep the drama down i would have freaking find that guy
and spam it right at his face to quit doing his excessive stalking
it's damn rigth freaky.and really uncomfortable ,

it makes me feels shivers all over...
which also let me understand about the cosplayers getting stalk by guys.
make it seems as if they are perverts trying to "subway eat fresh" >.>"
arg i just wish a few days of good rest will make things better...

11:31 PM

hmmm i guess i am feeling a bit wozzy these days
needed to talk to somebody but just dont have a place to really talk to
so i guess i will just blog out my feeling again
so that i wont have to face this emoish feeling which i hated

sometimes i find myself typing things arent wat i wanted to say
wat came out in my mind is wrongly typed or written down...
i wonder wat's up with this annoying habit of mine zzz
trying to find out the cause of this sigh...
in the end from trying to be nice i ended up giving myself more discount off my good self

am i doing the wrong thing to think for ppl before me?
does kindness really not worth a penny?
many a times my kindness had fail me badly landing me into unintentional trouble
i wish i can be unkind at times...
i wonder how can i be so...

anyway finally today i broke out the chain bonding me to eso.
and went to face my interest with a strong heart of passion
met out with YZ and the rest of the guys for SOY.
man it sure was tiring but fruitful this year.manage to get loads of good closeups
honing my skills in photography.

haha even met chester/peiqi /ace and noriko
lol wonder why nori has slim down so much x.x
kinda shocking.
maybe cos too long never meet with them le.
has been almost 1/2 a year since i last saw them

anyway need to upload the pics upfirst to get them in my comp x.x
ah... feels so good to blog again
gotta get my blogging habit back again~

3:45 AM