When Dreams Prevail,

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Cosfest memories ,the laughters;the whining and the snoring XD

Haha I guess I should update my memory bank with this years Cosfest as well
Firstly it has definitely been a crazy holiday.
I am happy that Chester gotten a chance to join us for Cosfest chalet this year
I totally miss hanging out with this dude.
Yea hia actually my first Cosplay friend
that brought me into the wonderful world of Singapore cosplaying
I still remember the very first time I met him was
back at 2008 street fest .
After 5 years we finally reunited or another chalet haha.hopefully next year we will be able to have another
Ok maybe I will state out this years member
Haha firstly our San Baka team is there
Me ,winter and Yuezhi
The crazily lovey couple Peiqi and Swee Siang
The super high Malaysian Cosplayer ,reia,xiaoqi and Michelle
Our ever dollfie loving lao shi Ning er
Our speedster Cheeseknight Guo Qiang
And our special guest gomok Gary
And visitors during BBQ jerrine,Nicole,Brenda,and her other Cosplayer/photog friends~

This year has been another epic Cosfest chalet worth to remember.
Again as usual .will be looking forward to next year's Cosfest chalet again.
Hopefully can get a even bigger chalet this time with more ppl to fool around with~
many thx to everyone for making this gathering a happening thing in our life's again~!

7:31 AM

Monday, June 27, 2011

still confused...

haha...
wat is up with me...?
sometimes i really hate being a sentimental guy
holding on dearly to feelings and emotions so strongly
just yesterday ,or should i say this morning
i set off a barrier to ward of the feelings i am facing
yet now an sms which kinda came out of nowhere
that totally got me confused...
it was really shocking...
with qi coming out telling me i have a text from someone.
well obviously i tot it has to be something to do with the chalet fee
but in the end the msg wasnt even revolving around it?
did i cause any inconvinence? ><
sometimes it'a so weird seeing the text.
i really wish i can just approach her
and ask her if she is attach or in a mist of dating someone....
many might wonder wat actually attracted me to her...
well a few factors i guess,
i am attracted to ppl whose actually quite mysterious
have quite a a character that normal ppl dont really notice...
looks is never a big factor
but the mind and the character has to be there.

just so simultaneously just as wat event i told her of
i was invited by someone to the event.
looks like there was some discussion going on again ;x
but i am really exhausted now...
i totally knocked out while typing this blog...
that is how tired i am now...
lol much confusion and wonderous i get
it arent all too shocked as i was before .
at least this time i am prepared.
it's nice to know wat is happening around u...

5:16 PM

Haha I really wonder if this is really my residing place where I can Talk my heart out...
Knowing that it's abandon
With no one who would come and read anything here at all
Well I won't call this my little haven would I haha...

Sigh...
Actually it does seems weird...
Typing this 5 am in the morning
With everyone sleeping while I am here Emo-ing :(
Well I won't exactly say I am Emo-ing
I have gotten far worst situations then this
But everytime stupid proba resurfaces
not becos I have some real difficulty
But some lame shit that deals with the heart...

Even after being so careful this time
I still fail to notice that an untouchable has appeared...
6 month and all I slowly tried to find out about her
And making sure that it wasn't another taboo...
And that nothing will even be surface around ppl I know...
In the end not only was it someone I knew
But someone close as well...

I have never expected him to be actually chasing her ...
Afterall watever he did is just so uniquely him.
That is wat he would do to anyone he met.
Whether the far past, past,recently or even up till now...
It's was so totally same?

I guess wat I accidentally found out was only recently
Where he was msging her on the hotel thing.
Where something's were totally unheard-of
At first I still wasnt too sure if it's just mere chatting and stuff
Well I am pretty quiet at times
The fact that I treat ppl whose friends and those whom I am interested in kinda a weirdly inverse way.
By natures I should have treated friends in a less close and openly jokeful way
And treat those whom one would consider liking vice versa
But instead i would end up that way.
It's really stupid cos not many ppl can understand this part if me
That's why I cant go around consulting ppl about my probs

The only diff is that things are done with more then 100%
of my effort .
Haha it was kinda crazy as well .
The the parody of how the world fools with ur feeling by inserting
An anime with a perfectly sad and cryable setup
That totally let's me let go my feeling with a good excuse for an escape
And yet I took no chances at abusing the tears.
On the outside it's a soap opera
Buy deep inside , it was really kinda a torture.

Wow... I have been typing nonstop for the past 30 min
Yet i haven't even stop.
Well things kinda grows a bit off the top when I tried to do some soul searching
So I went off outside .away from the crowd to do some soul searching .
Found out that things seems to fit in more and more sensibly .
It wasn't about trying to reject or avoiding
But the gate of the soul has already been opened
And it's not wat it seems at all.
Only did I found out I have again accidentally fell into a landmine
Where I fail to find out properly the background of someone...

This is really sick that I have self deceived myself into thinking that
They were just friends...
So I would definitely backout on this...
Not because I am scare but because it is t right of me to begin with...
So yea .wOnt be seeing me looking around for some time.
I need to recover from the shock I for wat has happened
And forget about everything that has happened
It shouldn't have existed ,shouldn't have even appeared at all...
Tml is another new day.the erasing start right after this blog.
There would be no more feeling .not even jealousy....

5:06 AM