When Dreams Prevail,

Friday, January 20, 2012

Cooking up a emotional chili crab...

wow... so long since i last update my blog again.
well... here i am again..
walking back here in my little sanctuary
and sitting down in the corner...

haha... every time when i have troubles or heart issues..
i end up coming here and pouring all my feelings out.
well at least i wont bother anyone here

well i just need a place for me to recall my thoughts as well as to just put my feelings here for now.

sigh...yea recently i have met a crab whose shell is as hard as mine...
so much things that i didnt know i was able to relate back to myself.
cancerians are romancers
we long for dreamy love .a fantasy that we can put our excitement and feeling to the extreme.

i have never thought that a day where i would find someone similar that actually exist.
yes i like doing sweet things,make ppl laugh with my weird actions.
and make sure in the end everyone is happy.
it makes me happy seeing others are happy as well.

hmmmm but after today.
it makes me wonder ... i am giving others the feeling that i am a weirdo?
liking the all different reason.
doing things out of the norm.
haha it's just like that day when i was at chester's house playing kinect.
while everyone wanna win.
i just wanna make a fool of myself and look at the laughters on everyone's face.
but of cos i ended up being the last LOL!

but here i am feeling a rush of feelings.
the past that had happened.
looking back i wish i had met someone who actually longs for feelings like these.
that kinda reminds me of my sec school days where i actually wrote poems,drew cute pictures and leaving secret poems under the table of the person i like.

sadly i was laughed upon...
sigh...
lol :/

after so many years of being alone.
i have put up a mask of smiling in front of everyone.
while keeping all the woes to myself.
can never seems to share out the feelings deep inside.
haha reminds me of ace attorney psyche locks ><

for some reason i feel so comfortable talking about it.
as well as hearing hers .
for a crab to be able to soften their shell for someone.
it's not easy.
i know it's is a hard path to walk.
but i am prepared for all the bumps that i will encounter.
only time will tell...

argh i am still feeling a bit heavy inside...
need to clear my mind for now and concentrate on my work for now ><

3:15 PM