When Dreams Prevail,

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

recalling back on that day...

lol just a recap on the earlier day while i was out with qi and the rest of the gang
yea it was qi's bday
but somehow i feel like we have ignored her...
dispite the morning visit to bukit timah railway,
i didnt really take a lot since it's almost similiar to tanjong pagar rail,except for all the rails.
but i really dont understand how ppl some ppl is thinking...
for me every moments while i am doing photography
i dont rush all over,
there are more then 1 thing to take at a certain area.
but someone was rushing us to move all over the place..
i am not sure if i can consider him a person who appreciate photography
or merely cos i was a competitor of a all diff issue...
yes i said was...

but nevertheless a few things i hate the most is being push around
and ppl who are trying to be funny .
i might not show out how i feel.
but i am quite bothered inside...
why are u trying so hard to show that u are better then me or anyone else? lol
in terms of photography i do it cos it has always been my dream since young.
i am often expose to arts and etc stuff.
i still remember my young days whenever there is a excursion,
i would buy a instant cam
and snap down the moments .

sigh...sometimes i feel like talking to qi about some of these stuff
but i dont really wanna bother her since she has a bf to attend to as well.
some of these stuff can only be shared with ppl who understands how u are from the inside.
a while back i do feel that i was giving the wrong attention.lol
lol shall not go into that.

but yea after that we went over to SAM for some dollfie shoot.
again there seems to be some restriction that i feel on myself.
i think bossu feel it too.
in our minds we all just have the interest of taking cool pics of chester's doll
wanting to go inside SAM since there is air con and 4 dollars nia
but yea -.- spoil sport there was kinda touting...
i personally was hoping to go in.
i have never been inside as well.
and yea like wat ning said.the fee was ex before that day's 4 dollar offer.

in the end the shoot ended at esplanade,
not a lot .
just some poses and stuff .
at times i really wish to just ask her aboiut some stuff.
and just telling her how i feel back then.
just to lift that heavy stone in my heart.
may it be rejection(which i am already set in mind anyway)
but will it be ok if i do so?
9 months of admiration and learning about her,
only takes me 1 moment to shatter them all...
how cool is that haha.....
forgive me for my selfishness...
i need to learn to let go on things that is impossible...
cos i can also feel the connection there as well...

8:19 PM