When Dreams Prevail,

Saturday, March 13, 2010

hmmm wat have i gain ?

been coughing the whole day
really hate the feeling of sickness
makes me weak all over
had to stop my exercises these few days
someone i know is sick as well =\
but it seems she is always insisting on wat she wanna do ><

i wish i can somehow unplug her power for a day or 2
so that she can rest and stuff
it's hard for everyone to really keep up with the hectic persuit of that eso
i wondered myself
am i doing the right thing to really help her to keep achieving her goal?
not that i dont like to though

just that the more i helped
the more she insist on pushing herself more...
today i kinda helped her again
everything was fine and stuff
no death to her cave farmers
i just dont understand how her char just suddenly died
when emo checked lol
how coincidental can it be?
for the whole day nothing has happened
until he log on?
lol that's kinda funny though but blah wat can i say?
maybe it was really lucky bah
i log out then after a certain time they all died

lol not like i am trying to gain glory in that
i help for the sake of achieving her goal to quit
not becos the game isnt fun or that i am quitting
it just makes me feel pain seeing her staying up so late just for a game
and pushing herself to wake up in the middle of her slp just for a boss

i mean wow yes 5~10 min of raid.
but that's like a disruption for a sweet resting time...
maybe i am too concern about her RL then her VR
though i all i get back was."i told u i wanted to do it..."

am i bad to really care for her that way?
horoscope said that there are times i have to say no just to help someone...
but i am too soft hearted when it comes to doing something for someone who...beepbeep

i just logged out feeling a bit sad earlier
i donno if she feels sadden cos i wasnt doing wat she really wanted
lol i dont think i can blame my comp for being lousy i guess lol
not being able to log so many clients
and check + farm zzz
blah...the world is crumbling on my head and i am getting buns all over x.x

cosplay summit is in 20 days time
cosfest is in 3 months time
and i am not even getting ready for my photography mood
this is really bad
i am letting a game ruining my life zzzz
need to get my life back from eso
hobby>eso GO DIE ESO!zzz

2:12 AM