When Dreams Prevail,

Friday, February 19, 2010

woke up with a throbbing heart....

feeling really restless now..
heart is beating so fast and i donno wat is the cause of it
well maybe i do
maybe i just cant accept the fact that i have destroyed something
that i really long to have but was too scare to ask
becos i am afraid that in return i will not get wat i really wanted
i remember i told a friend recently
no matter how far apart both ppl is
as long as u love each other
nothing can stop u from doing wat u want
give it all u got to love her and him

eventually both got together as a couple
even with all the hardship
but even when i adviced them...
i, myself didnt advice myself to do wat i really wanted
i feared that if i say out the truth.
i might not get wat i really hope for
so i kept asking ....kept asking..
.till i was slapped on my face due to my persistance

haha...i am stupid isnt it...
i can only say out my feeling in here yet i dare not face the world...
wat a coward i am...
if time were to turn back.
i would have left eso and joined kungfu like wat i said in eso....
and those were the truth...
it was never a lie .
if not i wont have feel so bad up till now...
is this really wat i want?
i have 4 more days to think this through...
for now as much as i still wanna persist on.i restrain myself
i will look into my heart
and see how i really feel.
when the time is right i will have to do the correct decision
to leave....or to stay....
cos it's not the game that i long for...
it's the real companiship that i really long for....

The Stargazer and the Fairy of Star of Gutan
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Days gone by like rivers and stream
flowing and waiting for noone
every nite Yu ze will not miss a chance to see Gutan doing her rounds
drifting around busying with wat a fairy should be doing
her smile always revolves around Hartu when ever they talked

Yu ze knew he was nothing compare to Hartu.
afterall they are both celestia bodies
whereas his nothing but a mere mortal
no matter how he long for he will never reach for the stars...

eventually Yu ze got married to a sweet wife; Fayizhen
and quietly and happily settled down
nevertheless he still didnt forget Gutan inside his heart
still longs that one day...just one day his wish will come true

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years pass by a war broke out between the heaven and hell
demons run amok the earth
causing chaos and driving fears in many's life
the heaven and earth was driven to beyond it's limit
so heavenly guards were sent to search for talents in the mortals
fine warriors,witty tacticians and fortellers
are summoned to the heavens to assist in the fight

Yu ze was one of the fortellers of stars summon into the Celestia court
with his feeling of unease,
there is a mix feeling of hope yet fear to see someone whom he longed
and there she is
as he stand before the Jade emperior
Gutan was standing among the other celestial bodies awaiting jade emperiors orders

" After so many years...
nothing have changed,her looks and everything about her still is wat they are...
but i ...i have changed so very much..all except my heart.it will never change even for a little bit..."

*to be continued... *

8:37 AM