When Dreams Prevail,

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

a sin that cant be forgiven

yet again i have pricked another needle upon a fragile doll
i wonder why am i a failure when it comes to facing ppl
maybe my sin is too much for a meer forgiveness from someone
to a extend that it makes it feel like the world has came tumbling down on me
i blame no one but myself
for my lack of communication,
my ability to convey my msg to others
ever since i played eso.
i feel myself losing my true self each and everyday
it's like a wow addiction

from the day i had some miscommunication with a friend of mine.
i have been noticing wat about my alertness and other factors
and i found out that my sense of alertness has dropped dramatically

i tend to misunderstand watever ppl said
giving myself a lot of wrong info and getting others annoyed over me
even as i was smsing a friend of mine i found myself reading the msg wrongly.
it was clearcut to the core yet i can misread it

it has never happened to me before
i guess it must have been all the late nites i was having playing eso
it has really affected my life by a lot
i know the reason why i stayed on.
i truthfully know but i really need to do something about it
this cannot go on.

for that i have decided
even when when i havent receive my pet and stuff
i am gonna officially quit ESO as of today.
once i have settled the accts i will just remove the game off my cpu
and get on with my life

i already told myself once the story of the stargazer and gutan
i will make a decision
and that will mean i will have to decide and keep to that decision
may it be a correct choice or not
i have done wat i suppose to do so far.
so now is the time for me to fuifill my promise to myself

10:41 PM