When Dreams Prevail,

Friday, September 05, 2008

the undying breathe of fire

5th Sept 2008

the undying breathe of fire

a very cold nite is tonight indeed.
as the cold wind blows with the cilling rain falling from the dark sky
like crystals from a mineral mine
as sat by my com typing this blog while listening to "saigo no kajitsu"
the mix feeling of joy and sadness seems all so smoothe from time to time
wat i feel like doing now is just to go to a corner of my bed
silently lying on my bed and enjoy the darkness
as well as letting this overwhelm me with every little drop of emotion rush

why am i feeling like this?
i donno...
maybe one can call this a final rush?
not becos of love ,not becos of anger or emotional distress
but just a way to enjoy the feeling of "emo" mode
yes i do enjoy these blue moments when my mind just goes while with fantasies
the fantasies of a mythical world of my own

realtiry has it's way of getting onto someone
making one strong on a side
yet weak on the other
yes that the balance of life
u gain a love,u lost a friend
u gain a friend yet u lost a little of the love

that was a sacrifice i had back in my younger days
gain a love and losr my friends
and when i return back to retrieve the friendship,
i lost the love i have gained
it's always how life can fool oneself
well one cant have best of both world can we?

"u are not caring enough for me"
"i need some personal space of my own..."
these are the words one would use all so frequently
i guess i still wish to watch the flowers bloom before my eye
but i am just a bee awaiting harvest
it's not my job to enjoy the beauty of the world

haha... why am i crapping so much senseless stuff
i guess it's time to withdraw back to my warm bed
and enjoy the cold nite in my warm blanket..
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man.. today sure is a busy day
hand washed my yukata;
cleaned the oil cooker,
marinate the meat
and went off to the bank to deposited the money in the bank

cant say those are hard work but well gotta pat myself on the shoulder
"hai! gokurosama deshita!"
i wonder when can i afford to buy another yukata
let alone a cosplay suit if i am going to do one
lol suddenly there is a few ideas popping in my mind
not new anime hars but some anime char that i like

well cosplay isnt all about fame but interest isnt it?
so i am gonna enjoy wat i do
of cos not to do it badly of cos
no point doing something that isnt fun
everything has to have a reason and enjoyment
if there i no reason to enjoy then it wont be any fun in life!

I wonder if i would be able to do this char if i can afford the money >.<"
Ginta~ and Bobo + Snow-chan from MAR

4:29 AM