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Monday, August 11, 2008

a 2nd approach...the same headache...

11 Aug 2008

a 2nd approach...the same headache...

sigh..yet another day of slacking at home.
went back to fairmont to look for veron on the pay issue
now she have manage to dug up my old pay slip
there was no record of extra rate?
wth event my holiday was normn rate wtf?

but the x2 pay i did ask beier
yea we both worked there in last priject
the pay is split by different day
and this need to reach back to criag
i hope he still remembers the x2 rate pay >.<
serious i have been having loads of headache over this issue..
pls for crying out loud clear the damn pay
no money ,cant even afford to buy food these days
yea skipped my breakfast and lunch today zzz
even going there i have to reserve 10 dollars in case i cant take mrt back home...
sigh...the life as a poor freak
gotta settle this and get a perm job again
if not i will be crying for help...

didnt wanna ask from my parents money
am i just being a egoist?
or am i trying to be independant?
in the end mom found out and yea gave me 50 to use till i settle my pay
yea i guess i have been too much on my personal principal on stuff
and owing ppl money is the least that i wanna have.
sigh...
just hope that pay would be out soon...
ayami : 150
peiqi : 12
haru : 64
mother : 50
total : 276

damn somehow i feel a little useless =\
relationship i sux.
friendship i sux.
now even money i also sux...
jacks of all trade , master of none...
sad sad sad >.<"
wat is happening to me?
seems like i have lost the special touch within me...
i am scared...really scared..
starting to lost the innocent little smile within me...

10:35 PM