When Dreams Prevail,

Monday, July 07, 2008

the story continues..of a baby in July

7th July 2008

the story continues..of a baby in July

yea u might find this funny
why am i double posting for 7th july?
haha well cos it's my Bday =3
nah kidding.it's just that i have more stuff to talk about.
i seriously wonder is it really something that worth having thew whole world
falling apart from.

one thing for sure is i think i know why a certain person is always trying to
make a big fuss over the issue to make me feel very much unwanted and making those around me hate me so much.it's all within the burmuda triangle story.
a cross over of different ppl and feelings from one another have made this person
take side over him.thus creating trouble over me.
making those around me slowly to dislike me a well.
hmmmm.but sometimes i do wonder,i am making myself feeling all heart burnt as well.
is it so hard just to do wat my heart is telling me?
it's not like i go around spreading negative news all over.
and yes i am not stupid and senseless enough to do that as well.after i am not some 14 year old kid who knows nuts of the world other then trying to make others suffer
i am a freaking human too...i have feelings just like everyone else.
have u all ever been in my shoe before?
losing the feeling of crying and not being able to express myself well to those i loved...u think this is a "alice game" fighting with each other just for "father"?
i have said it before,i dont treat these feeling as if they are a game.
i did not step in just cos i know u were one.but somehow the wrong msg came by and
u shown me u gave up.and now u came back again with twice the pain?

pls... i would say this once and no more then once.i place my work and my personal life in a different way.to me photography is a work of art.and my models are important in a way to a extend that i would do my best to boost their confidence.Yes i admit,my heart speaks of another tale but deeper inside there is another promise i made to both parties.i am just strifing for that goal as well as promise i made to myself and others.

a promise to which i hope to made singapore know more of J culture,and to make more friends...if one think this is just a kind of stupid dream then i just have to
bare with it .
these days i am really losing my appetite for any food.eating anything will just make me puke again...maybe it's a good thing.at least i can slim down,i guess.
sigh..i longed for a outing that liek this.moreover it's a triple bday chalet + cosplaying.turns out my bday is a return of a sad memories again.
i am happy the rest enjoys it,feel sad at those who tries to make my life bad,and thanks those who stand by me and helped me.i guess without this i cant learn more about this world.but i wish 1 day i can just have 1 small chance where i can just cry quietly...who say guys cant cry...a cry once in a while helps relieve the soul...

8:36 PM