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Monday, July 14, 2008

Secrets of my heart

14th July 2008

Secrets of my heart

again i lost my slp tonight...
or should i say morning.
was reading some blogs and again was kinda painstriken
to see that there were stuff that was pretty harsh in a way.
only a few ppl know of the things i have done for the sake of this chalet.
the crazy morning wakening just to check for booking wise.
and other stuff.
i dont wish to say out wat i have done.
cos there is no point saying out.
as long as those who know and those that i have shared with know can liao.
i just want this thing to draft away .
suddenly everything i have learn back in the past came back to me again.
the days when i council others of their problem.
i am facing right by me now.
10 ton of weight hitting me.
every little thing adds up to a bigger misunderstanding.
and when that flower blooms.
the seeds of misunderstanding spread through out the wind all over the land.
i feel like a small plant within the big forest
trying to get the little light that is coming through the canapy.
if it wasnt for those that were standing by me encouraging me.
i think i would have already wilted.

i have painted a picture in my mind.
i will put it in a story then

"in a dense forest
a plant grew from a seedling fallen from a tree far far away.
it grew out of nutrient that other animals had left.
as it slowly became a seedling taking root.
it struggles among the elder trees
hoping for a little glimspe of the sunlight.
finally when the it found the little light sipping through the dense canapy
a cloud came by and dimmed the sunlight.
dark days came by one day after another.

the plant grew weak and yellowish
barely grasping on to it's dear life
half wilted leaves flopping down to the stem.

but along came some planters.
seeing the poor wilting plant.
they gave it fertilizers and water.
slowly this plant grew a little stronger
and became a bloosomed rose in the garden of a royal palace.
the forest still lives on
but the cloud is always looming above them
taking away the sunlight.

as for the little plant
it gave the palace fragrance and laughter
cos it believes that giving those smiles
to the planters is just a small repayment to their kindness
and nothing else is needed then just a thank you from the heart..."

i thank the planters for wat they have done for the plant
i also thank the forest for giving the plant more knowledge of facing difficult times
again i thank the elder tree for giving me life.
but i can only wish for the wind to blow the cloud away
and let the sun once again shine on the forest...
and hope that u will rain and become a rainbow instead of a cloud anymore.

now to hope that i can sleep...

4:37 AM