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Saturday, July 12, 2008

is alice inside wonderland or outside?

11th July 2008

is alice inside wonderland or outside?

time sure has passed by like a river running downstream
as it slowly rushes through the rapids into the lake
so are my feelings
words from my mouth never seems match wat i am feeling inside.
i am also confuse if wat i am thinking is wat the fact is showing me in reality

should i search for the truth within me?
or should i just let it go away as if it's just a passing cloud?
suddenly i found out i have yet again lost the ability to speak properly
every word i try to say dont make sense anymore.
for the fear of being use by others against me
i stay hidden behind my shell
hoping for the right person to embrace me
and in return let me care for them in life.

loneliness has always being part of my life.
since the RO incident that almost cost me my...
from then on i fear for that part of life.
up till recently i tot i have found something that is world for me to look up upon haha
but in the end the result is nevertheless still the same.
maybe i am just fated not to be able to find someone i can truely give my heart to.

cancerians are quiet ppl who seek company with those they really trust.
if they hate someone ,they will hate them to the the core.
but they always fear that things get too exposed and getting themselves hurted.
i am quite surprise that i am not the only crabbie that is within the group of friends.i think in my life i have only meet like 4~5 cancerians up close.
many of which i can relate to.

haha i guess i just it's just me bah.using too much feeling over others but in return the feelings are not wat i expected to be
so in the end i would just trip and fall back a little
bruise myself haiz...why do humans need love?
i know its a stupid thing to ask .
but still i have said it out...

just as i was about to slp i stumble upon my old blog again.it's was a short 2 months between my poly life and those funny love emothins i used to have.kinda funny how i use to be.
but i guess there is something i feel like a repeat of history towards now.
maybe it's just me
or maybe i am just thinking too much..
haha but nevertheless life is never dull with the world spinning everyday..

"NO matter how many probs were there,
somehow i always end up seeing u at the end of the dark tunnel
even the darkest of days,i see light in u.
but is that a illusion or a reality?
but the most important thing is .
the heart will always be longing
no matter how I hid myself
the truth will never cover the fact that
a bouquet of rose still exist inside my heart
secretly waiting for a special someone to hold..."

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