When Dreams Prevail,

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Dazied..blurred..confused..

9th July 2008

Dazied..blurred..confused..

today is still a day where my heart is still unsettled
the whole day i am just always thinking of wat have happened in the chalet.
have i done something wrong?
or is it just the way others look at it differently.
misunderstanding seen by other is wat she says the day i called over.
and the matter was made big by others .
hmmm... althought i am hurt but i am slowly standing up again.
with the help of those who are really my friends
i am grateful for those who have shown me the truth.
and am deeply disappointed by those who think this is a good chance to deal a hard blow against me.

i maybe soft.but my experience has come a long way.
every tear i shed every blood i dropped.
tells a tale which i keep in my heart.
learning from the mistake.
i have learn that even if i take grudges it wont help.
i am not intendind to break my benefactor's promise.
i will continue to spread the love and care.
no matter how hard it is.
how many difficult times i have to go through
or how many ppl hating or loving me.
this is part of my life

if i fall to this schemes i would be as weak as those who plots them.
i believe in sincerity,a lie no matter how it's craved is still a lie.
it took me 2 days to sort out and it's only when i suddenly remember that.
i,too have a family.if i would to fall flat to a stranger,how would i protect my family as well as those i love?

so from here on i will retrace all my steps.
first my life..
then my hobby..
then my friends..

no one will try to harm them again.
this is my promise.and when i make a promise i will fight to protect it
for now.i have this group of ppl i need to care for and love.
and i will build up everyone's confident again and make our goals even better then our old goal.
i will once again be a leader to lead everyone.and far most? make everyone enjoy and have fun!

thank u mochi u really help clear my mind whenever i think of wat u said.
and some others which i am gonna keep them a secret for now.i will stand firm
today is my last day i shed my tears.
i remember i have a promise and a quote
"3 tears will break even the lovest heart"
thank u for not replying me so i can totally have a dead heart on u.
i will now stand firm again once i find out wat is happening.
i am not afraid of those who look at me in a queer way anymore.cos i know i didnt do anything wrong
so why am i feeling bad for?
LOL funny that this hits me up only until now.
i think i know why.
cos i was so busy trying to protect that i didnt know wat i am protecting anymore
in fact i am actually protecting the wrong person ! LOL!~
o well at least things are clear up now.
my mind is set.
tml my work will not be drag dopwn by this feelings anymore.
i have found my new goal in life.

7:59 PM