When Dreams Prevail,

Thursday, April 03, 2008

The grief finally ends here...or does it?

3 Apr 2008

The grief finally ends here...or does it?

today my heart finally had a final shot of pain that may finally ease...
to see that someone i used to loved,being in love with another...
as painful as it seems i have forced myself to smile thinking this is the time i should finally stop clinging on a one sided love which never has a returned feeling.
so many memories....loved and treasured...something which i dont wish to give up even when it ended 4 years ago...well that's just me.it's easy to love someone but when u tries to let go,it never seems to be easy at all.all my laughters and happy faces seen by others was nothing but a mask i put on in order to hid my fragile self as well as not to let the ppl around me feel low.it's a pain i rather suffer in silence then to have others share this.

haha..stupid little crabby i am,why am i a cancerian anyway...i wish i was a tarius,short tempted and forget everything after that...now i feel specially lonely...haha as i slowly type this blog entry ,playing anata ga inai..i feel my heart slowly dying out wanting to cry yet my ego refused my craving .
"u promised yourself to never ever shed tears again till death do u part..."
time for me to stand tall and smile to the world shouting.

"Boku wa Koichi Yutaka sorekara chaklian
desu.Alex wa shinjiteru.Koko sekai sonzai ga inai desu...zattai inai..."

Alex has died with the momories of the past and has cease to exist now.i would smile to the world and be strong.stronger than ever to heart the bleeding heart once again...

and when the time comes where my heart is shared with someone i loved again,i would shower her with nothing but the best.never will i hate couples anymore.i would walk out of the darkness and accept the truth and smile truthfully without my mask this time...

"Love is Fragile,Handle with prayers"

6:59 PM