When Dreams Prevail,

Friday, August 10, 2007

headache or am i heart ache once again...

so much things i wish to say yet words doesnt even come close for me to express myself...currently i have found a new job working under starhub as a customer service.but life wasnt ride with the wind.as stressfully as i can say,we cant judge on a person's character when it comes to having be a understudy to a person who works longer then u.for the first few days of my life was a hell to begin with.well there are certainly many factors to come about,but the worst one would have been my personal one.after a past incident where i once again became a freeman again,i have devalope a sense of solitude within myself.i started to talk less and tend to stay away from ppl.nothing can really be done with this part of me until i can release myself from the regrates and pain i use to have.but well wat's past has already past.nothing better to bring it up again.

with that i have a hard time trying to reach out to customers and often feel nervous whenever i get close to my workplace...i hated it whenever i feel that sense of nervousness.it's the heavy breathing and feeling of dizziness....

i donno why but after the last few days when i went under another someone,it seems to have changed my way of feeling .it's a miracles i was feel with calmness within my heart.maybe it's was just my 6 sense where i am able to detect if u are truely sincere or just another demon in this hellish world.but well becos of her i had the first step out of the dark.my sincere thanks to her.i would not wanna set a name here but a thousand graditudes to her.

wat's bothering me these days is not only that,but dreams of someone i used to love,and maybe still rememeber till now.i had never forgotten about the days i had with her.i tot i had forgotten about her but it seems that i was wrong.after having to talk to her again not long ago i begin to dream of her in the mist of the nite.is it something that i am left undone that i have to say to calm this feeling?.it has been almost a year plus...now i understand wat's the feeling of first love,a feeling tat leaves the most memories and scars as well...

but i dont think it would be possible for us to be together even if i try.i would really love to say " i love u,would u let me once again hold your hand and ride the lover's boat again."a boat ride that i had never forgotten,and never will be ever...

7:36 PM