When Dreams Prevail,

Friday, October 27, 2006

new wallet,old memories...

today just changed my wornout wallet to a new one.ppl often said have a new wallet will bring you more wealth.haha well it doesn't apply to me tough.at least not for this very day,with wat's inside my wallet.a photo card...of 2 person who were once very close,very loving,full of laughter and teasing...but now full of nothing but speechless space that will never again be filled with any sound.yes that is one of the most nicest pic we have ever taken together.

haha i can all still remember it so well,as if it was yesterday.the photo was taken at Lot 1,top floor,arcade:Xzone.haha we held hand in hand walking around looking for a neocard shop.it was almost everytime that we did that.every special occasion we will always have a neocard to remember it.happy moments...but i didnt expect these happy moments will only be rememebered in a photo that makes my heart stop for a moment just to catch my breathe,not for shock but to regain my conscience that it's the past and will never be the future ever i guess.

that photo have been in my wallet every since the day we took it.it has never left it even till the day we ended our relationship.it has never been the case of me forgeting about her forever.nothing like that could have been done.never ever i guess.although the grief pain is no longer haunting me.memories still has their way of teasing with my life.

haha sometimes i wonder how is she doing now.is coping well with her collueage and that bitching boss of her's?thinking back to the past,till the day we moved on our own path,how so many things has changed about her and me.ns life has gone me to be a slacker more then a leader,gotten me to have lesser time to spend with her as well as my family.balancing between my family and her was really a pain too.but then again i didnt wanna sound that out.my fault not to too,but how can i let her feel as if she is the cause of it...?after all...she is my gal..i meant used to be...haha just feels funny to suddenly blabbering out the feeling i have kept so very long inside of me.that was suppose to be a secret.but i guess it's better off taking my thought out of my head and into the book of memories.my sweet sweet blog,silent listener.i wished to tell her all but i think it's all too late now.no need to even having a second thought.i will still pray for her safety and blessings...that will always be.and will always stay that way till the day my heart fails me...God pls look after me,my family as well as the one i have and had love once before the blessing...

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